Today while I was getting lunch Holt called. I thought it was our Travel call, but no. Our baby needs a “class B waiver” because she has a seizure disorder. She won’t be issued a US Visa without this waiver being signed, notarized, and returned to Korea. This was the only possible thing that could delay us at this point, and yes, we hit it. Which at this point in our journey shouldn’t’ surprise me, because after all, that is just par for the course for us. I’ll be frank…I’m done. I have no emotional stamina left. If God wants us to have this baby I really wish he’d give her to us, and if not, then take her…but I can’t keep doing this anymore. I need this to end, becasue I've got nothing left.
Nothing.
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Psalm 126:5
ReplyDeleteThe time for tears is nearing an end. Soon you will be singing songs of joy, and the pain will fade into the distance. I think those of us who shed so many tears in the wait, are those that God is grooming to sing his praises the loudest of all.
I know exactly how you feel. I too have stood in that pit looking up to My Heavenly Father begging Him to have mercy on me. I wish I could say that all this pain will disappear. It WILL fade, but I still wonder why the journey to our daughter had to be so long and difficult. I will tell you that SHE was/is totally worth every bit of anguish that we felt. She is the most amazing gift that I have ever received. There are days I look in her eyes and wonder how I got so lucky to be called her Mom!
ReplyDelete(((((HUGS))))) Even though it doesn't feel like it know. She will be in your arms very soon.
When I was at my lowest point, someone from the bb told me "The darkest hour is always right before the dawn" It was so very true!!!
I know how you feel, but hold on to your faith. HE will come through for you. I will say a prayer for peace for you . Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, I am praying, and I love you! Hold tight dear sister for his timing is perfect.
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Hold on tight. The ride is just about over. Your precious daughter will be in your arms soon. God is good and HIS timing will be perfect.
ReplyDeleteSo many of us have been exactly where you are emotionally now, trust me I COMPLETELY understand.
Hugs and prayers as you finish the journey to your beautiful daughter Addison.
Kim
Holt BB